It’s been a while. I’m sorry I’ve been away, but you see…I’ve been busy. So much has happened and in truth, I’ve taken to writing things on paper and ink. I hope you don’t feel betrayed, I haven’t forgotten you…I’ve just…branched out in some way.
In this time, I’ve changed. I think finally after all these years of wondering, pondering, mulling, and attempting at discovering…I have finally found myself. I have connected and transgressed with my “I”. Isn’t it funny, life, how these things go? I accessed and communed with my inner core, and along with it came a diagnosis of mental illness. I had my dream job, and then lost it. I found my true love, and we chose ourselves over each other. I think I’ve settled down and am actively seeking routine. Above all, I have the lessons of meditation, and finally, I have come to terms with accepting my madness and I am scumming to a raving vision.
It’s almost laughable. And certain parts are funny…mostly, it’s a roller coaster ride and yes, there’s quite a dosage of pain.
When your world is turned upside down…there’s little to gain from throwing a fit or remaining in confusion, it only makes sense to start looking at things differently… no?And I do now, see things very differently.
The journey henceforth, is no longer of discovering the self. It has shifted to becoming more of me, becoming true to who “I” am, and to live out my purpose.
Today, I feel grounded in annicha and satchitananda. Today I feel love and compassion. Right now it feels well with my soul. I trust of this there will be more.
I believe. I know.
I can. I will.